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I was watching this Indonesian Movie online at Indo-TV . It's about a girl who was supposed to get married in one month's time but then she met accidentally with her long time high school obsession, a guy that she had a crush on and her first love but she never confesses her love to the guy and she had to watch girlfriend after girlfriend that guy had in high school but she could only be his friend untill they graduated and went to separate ways. She now has to decide when that guy confesses his love to her and actually have been trying to find her after he was sent abroad and back again and so she was confused coz now she realized she still loves him and she regretted that she never told how she felt back then in high school and so did he. Spoiler here, she didnt get to marry her fiancee and they had to cancel all the wedding arrangement with humiliation etc etc and back to her highschool crush.

I am sure im not the only one who has this kind of story, but the difference is that in the movie, she gets to be with her first love, her highschool crush. Happy Ending, well mine....I couldn't cancel the wedding and hurt alot of people but I did wonder what if at that time I did like the girl in the movie did, fight for the love I have and who cares about other people being hurt coz of that? but it's a scary and forbidden thought that I really don't want to go in too deep besides he and I have come to some sort of silent agreement that we can only be just friend, I heard that he is still not married and works on a cruise ship, the painful part about watching the movie is that, the guy that the girl loves is almost like my first love too only that the guy in the movie is much more handsome coz he's an actor. I did compare their photos.

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Oh well, it was a long time ago...I'm moving on and I love my husband.

Respect

I have been taught RESPECT since I could remember, my dad was my role model, he taught me to respect the elders, GOD's creatures & creations & I learned more about respect as I grow older. My husband is a christian while Im a moslem before we decided to get married we talked alot, I told him about my religion and he told me about his & to me understanding and knowing other's beliefs are very important so I know what do's and dont's & what to say otherwise I may hurt other people's feelings unintentionally.

Anyway, On Fasting Month, as a moslem we have to wake up early in the morning to eat before the sun rises and couldnt eat or drink again until the sun down & so waking up at 3am is abit of a trouble for me, my husband (bless him) though went & buy me an alarm clock which I was so grateful but when it was time  that I have to get up the alarm clock didn't do much good for me as I sleep like a log so my husband has to resort to his other methods by shaking my shoulder & body until Im awake.

I am so touched by what he did, he also makes sure that I have enough instant food for me to have without having to cook it first at 3am when we went shopping he makes sure I drink alot of water coz he doesn't want me to get dehydrated. I have done this for years and although I keep telling him that I'll be fine, he is still worrying, that makes me love him & Respect him more. I told him that everytime I am fasting, I get more sensitive, I know how it feels like for those poor people out there who probably couldn't eat or drink for days. I wish I was rich so I could help them by feeding the poor everyday, but even if I did I can't feed all of them everyday, it's like trying to be in their shoes sorta thing.

And your Lord has decreed that you worship none but Him, and that you be dutiful to your parents. If one of them or both of them attain old age in your life, say not to them a word of disrespect, nor shout at them but address them in terms of honor. [Qur’an 17:23]

There are people (some I know) out there who just like to compare religions, saying that his/her religion is better that the others and they like to find faults in other religions, I guess it's human nature to be competitive and selfish. I don't like to say that mine is better and I am ashamed to hear that from my fellow moslems.I believe that all religions (that I know) teach only kindness, none of them taught you how to kill or rape regardless which GOD they/we worship and I do Respect them and their beliefs.

I have to say that I probably  more spiritual than religious, I love to meditate with Qur'an as my guidance and I tend to read a verse in the Qur'an and try to seek the meaning behind the words coz I've been taught not to judge a book by its cover or try to interpret words as it is, it's like riddles and poetry.  I also believe it all starts with oneself, trying to beat the demon within oneself and be a peaceful person, and so we all could live in harmony regardless your race, religion, culture etc.I still need to defeat my anger, my envy, my fear of losing people that I love, my confusion  about my future and my life, etc. I want to be at peace, to be a true human being.

I've been called many names, stupid or coward for backing off from a fight or not trying to defend myself or my religion, the truth is I don't really care what people say about me or my religion just like Prophet Mohammad was being spit on his face and thrown by rocks and being mocked by those that he was trying to teach to do kindness, because if I took the bait then I'm not different from the devil. There are many kinds of temptations that try to ignite a fire in your heart and create war & hatred. The truth is I'm just too busy trying to get close to GOD than taking part in whatever the devil is doing to human's heart to lure them to hell.

My childhood sweetheart & neighbor is hindus, we got along very well, I learned alot from him and his family about their culture and religion, I also have buddhist friends when I was in college in Singapore and I had so much fun with them, especially on Chinese New Year when they invited me to share their joyful festivities. Also I have friends who are Christian and one of them is my best friend and we're like sisters. To me our differences fascinate me and learning other cultures interest me coz Im just a simple girl and I am not smart enough to debate or trying to outsmart others, I'm still a pupil even when I reach 80 years old, I still regard myself as a student who always willing to learn new things and take the good into practice and leave the bad, I take the world and its inhabitant as my mentors and I'm their observant pupil. 

Yesterday was the last off day for my hubby, sadly he has to go back to work today after 5 long days since saturday he was enjoying his holiday with me. Yup, I am alone again at home after he went to work. Anyways, prior the holiday, we have been planning things to do but I guess we didn't do some of them, he was planning to do the Wifi so I can get online downstairs or anywhere in the house but he didn't, he was enjoying too much of relaxing and reading. We were also planning to do the back garden together but again, we didn't do it and yes I was abit disappointed but I guess he needed his rest coz he's the only person who bring food to the table.

Trip To Horsham 01

Yesterday, we went to Horsham, a neighbor town where my husband's office located. It was about 30mins drive, it was a nice drive, I love the scenery too bad my camera isn't so good to take pictures from a moving car. we wanted to go to this cook shop coz on our wedding day my husband's colleagues gave us a voucher gift to shop there since my husband loves to cook. We parked at my husband's office car park (it's the last building in the pic below), then we went to the shopping centre called The Swan Walk.

Trip to horsham 02

we had lunch at McDonalds coz it's been so long since I have Mcdonalds and I kinda miss it, my husband though wanted us to have a proper lunch at the pub but I told him that we can go to the pub on the weekend when we don't have to be in a hurry to do anything else coz we still had shopping to do.

I am glad that today I can get online again but before I can get online in peace, I gotta do housechores first, so I'll be back!

Sunday Lunch

I just came back from a lunch date at my parent-in-law's house, it was also a late celebration of my MIL's birthday which me and my husband havent yet found a gift for her (blame him coz he's still thinking what to give her), his sister (in a blue tanktop) though gave her mom a purse. She and her girlfriend (in a white shirt) brought their cute little dog named Rosie, I really love dogs and I get to play with rosie at the back garden where we sat after the meal and had our dessert there. My MIL cooked a nice prawn stir fry and fruits with crean for dessert, she also baked some chocolate chip cookies, she's really a good cook oh not to mention the raw veggies with dips and garlic bread for starter and she even served us cheese sticks which is my favorite :)

I did have a good time there especially with Rosie, I took some pics with her which I think I'll post it for tomorrow's Me & My Monday. My husband is having a long weekend and he wont be back to work till Wednesday so I can't get online too long, we're planning to do the Wifi tomorrow and going for shopping on Tuesday and perhaps do the back garden, this is going to be his first time helping me out with the garden, about time, I say!

Hope you guys have a great weekend! 

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From E-forwards

1. SOCIAL SECURITY SEX Two men were talking. So, how’s your sex life?"
   "Oh, nothing special. I’m having Social Security sex."
   "Social Security sex?" "Yeah,I get a little each month, but not enough to live on!"
2. LOUD SEX
   A wife went in to see a therapist and said, "I’ve got a big problem, doctor. Every time we’re in bed and my husband climaxes, he lets out this ear splitting yell."
   "My dear," the shrink said, "that’s completely natural. I don’t see what the problem is."
   "The problem is," she complained, "It wakes me up!"
3. QUIET SEX
   Tired of a lifeless sex life, the man came right out and asked his wife during a recent lovemaking, "How come you never tell me when you have an orgasm?" She looked at him casually and replied, "You’re never home!"
4. CONFOUNDED SEX
   A man was in a terrible accident, and his "manhood" was mangled and torn from his body. His doctor assured him that modern medicine could give him back his manhood, but that his insurance wouldn’t cover the surgery since it was considered cosmetic. The doctor said the cost would be $3,500 for "small," $6,500 for "medium," and $14,000 for "large." The man was sure he would want a medium or large, but the doctor urged him to talk it over with his wife before he made any decision The man called his wife on the phone and explained their options.
   The doctor came back into the room, and found the man looking dejected. "Well, what have the two of you decided?" asked the doctor. The man answered, "She’d rather remodel the kitchen".
5. WEDDING ANNIVERSARY SEX A husband and his wife had a bitter quarrel on the day of their 40th wedding anniversary. The husband yells, "When you die, I’m getting you a headstone that reads: ‘Here Lies My Wife - Cold As Ever’." "Yeah," she replies, "When you die, I’m getting you a headstone that reads: Here Lies My Husband - Stiff At Last.’
6. NO SEX
   My husband came home with a tube of K-Y jelly and said, "This will make you happy tonight." He was right.
   When he went out of the bedroom, I squirted it all over the doorknobs. He couldn’t get back in.
7. OLD SEX
   One night an 87 yr old woman came home from Bingo to find her 92 yr.old husband in bed with another woman. She became violent and ended up pushing him off the balcony of their 20th floor assisted living apartment… killing him instantly.
   Brought before the court on a charge of murder. The judge asked her if she had anything to say in her defense. She began coolly, "Yes, your honor, I figured that at 92, if he could have sex, he could fly .

Me and my glass of water

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 I had a very busy day today, I had to go to the Post Office to post some letters and it was an hour walk from my house and back again, My feet is killing me. When I came home, I fixed a quick lunch as I was starving coz I skipped my breakfast, I did abit of resting and got online for an hour and then back to do the front garden untill my hands are full of bruises coz some of grasses are quite sharp and I don't have working gloves.

It's not done yet but I really can't do more, too tired and I'm so thirsty! I'll do the rest tomorrow morning hopefully before the garbage truck comes to collect the trash.

Bag em

Finally, I bought stuff I needed since 2 weeks ago, hubby is fine enough to take me to town and buy the things I wanted and more. The fact that I forgot to bring my camera did not dampen my mood, we went from one book store to another to find my favorite author's books and hubby did his fair share too in buying his books.

Here's what I bought:

• 2 Historical Novel books by my fave author Julia Quinn
• 2 Sci fi books (my hubby's fave)
• Scrapbooking papers and stuff
• Blank cards and envelopes for making Cards
• An acid free craft glue
• 4 packets of Indonesian Noodles that I fortunately found in Asian Market
• 1 rice and seaweed crackers (again my fave)
• Some Birthday cars and wedding card to send on monday.

Okay I have to run downstairs again to make dinner! See ya later!

Javanese

I have been having bad dreams lately as well as good dreams, it was probably on Saturday night that I had a dream of my grandma, I considered this dream as good coz I've missed her and I couldn't go back to Jakarta for her funeral, I remembered only that I went to her house and there were my cousins and my aunt were watching tv in the living room, my grandma's bedroom's door was open and I saw her sitting on the floor in a praying-like position but wearing our traditional javanese outfit Kebaya, I can even remember what she was wearing and she looks so beautiful and young and she smiled at me.

To see your grandmother in your dream, represents nurturance, protection, and unconditional love. Consider the qualities and characteristics that exist in your own grandmother.

and my second dream, it was probably on sunday night that I had this dream about me having a brain leakage, just

Brain leakage

like in a movie "Hannibal" where the difference is that I was wearing a helmet to hold my cracked skull because I knew if I took it off then I'll die, I can remember the liquid and blood running down from my brain to my face and I was praying to GOD that if I had to die, let it be painless.

To dream of your brain, suggests that you are under severe intellectual stress. It may also symbolize your problem-solving abilities and that you need to put those abilities to use. Alternatively, it may imply that your ideas are not receiving enough attention and validation. You are concerned that your knowledge and teachings are not be transmitted clearly.

The third dream was again about my childhood sweetheart, it was a sweet dream for me, all I can remember that He was trying to protect me even though I asked him to go home, he'd rather stay and even sleep on the floor blocking the doorway so anything/anyone couldn't come and hurt me, we kissed in that dream, one kiss that even when I woke up, I still feel the warmth.

To see an old ex-boyfriend from childhood in your dream, refers to a freer, less encumbered relationship. The dream servers to bring you back to a time where the responsibilities of adulthood (or marriage) didn't interfere with the spontaneity of romance. You need to recapture the excitement, freedom, and vitality of youth that is lacking in your present relationship.

 

Werewolf

Last night though, I had a dream of being a werewolf, I haven't watched any horror movies or seen wolf or anything but last night, I remembered I was hiding in an old cinema with lots of people mostly children, we were hiding from werewolfs and zombies that have been rulling the town and I saw one werewolf creeping up inside the cinema and in order for me to stay alive and protect others, I have to face it but got bitten and so I turned into a big werewolf, people are crying and panicking, so I came outside and fought all the werewolfs and zombies that wanted to come inside the cinema, I was tired coz there were so many of them and when I almost ran out of energy, I woke up.

To see a werewolf in your dream, indicates that something in your life is not what it seems.It is symbolic of fear, repressed anger, and uncontrollable violence.

To dream that you are a werewolf, suggests that some aspects of your personality are hurtful and even dangerous to your own well-being. You are headed down an undesirable path. Alternatively, it refers to your repressed instincts.

Interpretation by  Dream Moods 

I haven't done much to complete the front garden, still a long way to go before I could plant anything but thanks to my Parent-in-law who have helped me these past few weeks, I know the project is going very slow as the garbage truck only comes once a week. Anyways, I'm glad in how things turned out, I can see changes already but boy, I'm tired!

TheGardenProject

I just hope that we can finish the front and the back garden before winter comes and next year, I can start plant flowers and do some other re-decorating. I'm feeling moody for these couple of days and my stomach is painful and I have this backaches in the morning, I always hate having a period, urghh.

I was disappointed for not going out on the weekends coz it was raining on saturday and on Sunday, my husband was too tired to take me out, I still don't know the way to go to town or what bus to take so I pretty much still depends on my husband to drive me around since I can't drive and I've only been here for 3 months. I still need to buy some birthday cards and gifts and Wedding card as my baby brother is officially leg shackled now, his wedding was on the 10th of August held at his bride's hometown called Pekalongan in Central Java.

Will tell you more about the wedding of my baby brother later, right now i'm just too tired to use my fingers :) 

Happybirthday

Happy Birthday to my MIL, sorry I can't come to wish you in person, coz I don't think I have energy left in me, not even to smile, I hope your Birthday is filled with JOY and GOD BLESS.